A Big Decision!

No! No! No!  We are still doing great together and planning things ahead. Its the job, I am talking about. :P.

I finally put in my resignation. Guess few were already expecting it from a while ago. Phew!

I still remember the day when HR said," We never expected you to join! " and there goes the sixth year!

Well! here's to the new beginnings:

Que Sera Sera Whatever will be will be The future's not ours to see Que Sera Sera What will be will be

Me !!!

I know its been a long long time. I have been longing to write into this for all the past & lost years. I had an exam today, and I realized I want to write so much, I was wriitng about management skills.. boring huh... But I wanted to write the business blabber and crossed the word limit.

Now here I am typing after so so long... Missed it so much.

Most of the philosophy; guess you had to be at a satisfied and enriched level to actually put your thoughts into writing. I am happy again... atleast for now. :)

THE ME - A PEEK!

"Well to start out... a simple Hi! . And yes as most people do I hate this part writing about oneself.

There’s so much yet so little to know about a person. What I feel people look in this section is wot others feel about them. So, I really don’t know what. But as ever I keep hoping that it is something good.

There is no correlation between my academics and the kind of work I am associated with. My options are so vast and varied that I dare not to pick, lest I lose them all; and yes this is THE THING that keeps me on my toes. I am aware people beg to differ in their opinions, but I think everything will accrue into one at some point. And I strongly believe one has to divulge in the various subjects/branches of life to stay put and grow in this competitive world. I believe in being the best support, The one who knows to be firm, rigid and encouraging in the needed times than being the leader himself. Not everybody can lead and I am one of him or her.


As for me, I find myself someone too busy to keep people around me happy. Like to help Mom in the kitchen, nudge Papa to take a vacation, help sis to pick the best outfit, spy on my bro ;), go shopping with friends and cook the best for friends & family.


We are a family of six - Papa, Mom, Me, Sis, Bro and a cute doggie – Teddy.
Papa owns a small firm . Mom is the best homemaker I pledge to ever know. Younger Sis is married and working for Dell as Analytics Specialist, Bro is a professional Cricketeer, currently playing for Ranji Tournament.


The man I am looking for is someone strong but still has his childish ways, someone understanding, who can GUESS when something is not right. I am looking for someone who can reciprocate the emotional feelings attached with the bond. As few people simply call it FREIND, but I want someone who can be more than a friend, to be spoken to without the fear of being judged, someone never to be bored of my blabbering and the nothings. One who does not call marriage An Adjustment or A Complication but Everything to do find the other happy. A fairytale setting haan… well that’s what I am looking for. Well if its not wot you are looking for; I wish u have all the luck ........"

Stubborn Feeling!

You know that the time when you decide to sit in front of the system and stubbornly enough you decide you are not going to move until you post something ( being constructive isn’t the criteria) …. LOL. And then you thaw before the computer; staring at the screen for minutes (which by the way seem like endless hours), a glance @ the system time and then you re-iterate you’re thought --“no, not until you write something” .Well.. A warning! You are about to be subjected to explicit torture (nothing different, a similar one as you are put thru when reading my blog).

So, the thought “Me, staring @ the screen ...LOL”; then I decide I am going to write about the thought which passes my mind … that should be enough to fill a page... Ok so the thot.. Creative writing.. LOL. Ok.. I have been writing/ compiling(a professional term) emails for a friend of mine about his everyday boring work emails - updates to his manager about the application, reporting bugs, (nothing confidential but I cannot understand a wee bit of it). Then one day he tells me to write content for his website (new business). Finally some pro work at hand… Believe me... I am bored writing about the soldering de-soldering rework machines; the Uh…Oh- PID Controllers, the product catalog. And all the documentation, quotation, emails, diplomacy, writing resumes (it’s actually bad bragging about work …but world is such a materialistic place... And believe me “I” tell them YOU HAVE TO SELL YOURSELF WELL”...LOL) and really longing to do something close to my heart... Ok now “close to heart” has nothing to do with the friend’s work but a welcomed change.

It all comes down to the sentence he wrote -
XXX: like -- terms and conditions.. about us.. how it work? like that pages
XXX: no no i will give me that content..
XXX: u just have to beauty that content
XXX: in profession way

“You beauty the content” - Isn’t it LOVEEEEELY …. LOL
Hell Ya! Beauty the content... LOL …creative and Me… Grammatically correct... Just cribbing...

Can I get up now? I have scribbled enough for a day … And then the inner voice; yeah… I just got it back a few days ago. Wondering where it had been all this while.

Whatever! It says be happy at least I am back now.But what about things that happened in its absence,when it was on its so called vacation … and its not me scribbling --- its talking out loud --V.A.C.A.T.I.O.N. I got married in that vacation for god’s sake. Inner Voice: and of course I missed it.

It was like I never existed; and I didn’t f%$#@*& have a choice to say I liked or disliked the things happening around… It was bad. I could not talk to friends; all the hell - the inner voice. Before Kalpi starts thinking I am losing my mind ... I better end it...LOL

So that’s the thought for the day. And end of your torture too. Sure come back for more... LOL.

A FEW NOTHINGS!

You know the feeling …. u suddenly feel like writing .. I mean a lauoooooooot writing... thts happening to me... and then I think... Ahem! (I can think again now...LOL) wot do I write about... then all goes blank.

A fren pinging on gtalk… I got to know his first name today after 2 years or so I guess…LOL.. Been watching videos on YouTube... A lot… feels nostalgic...

Actually food for thought – What is future. I mean really really asking… why do we talk about about future… The other day a fren of mine 30 something was saving for her future, are we not living in the future? Before u start lecturing me on the tenses… I mean I truly are we not living it?

And I said future… and wots the present then... Hey don’t take me wrong.. I have bored people to the limit talking about future plans , my hubby is new to the list… LOL... A patient god man I must say... LOL

We save up for a house, kids... but wot if we need the money for kids like now… it’s the future. Does life really end after 40…? I mean thinking of it.. I don’t think I can go clubbing or trekking …. I might be too tired... but that is wot I like to do… not being tired but the former.

Ok I agree... I am the confused lot... Renegotiating their views about life … thinking about the nothings… AGAIN A LOT! Worrying about your nosy neighbors and Uh! U r so better without them... But guess everybody (if not U; I specifically mean individuals with brains) go thru this phase. It will pass thru.. LOL.

MY WEDDING INVITE

I know the big day is gone and all.. but I want to post it.. so here it is.. Hope I will be back for good this time... :)

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Hi All,


”The big Day”, “The 29 ...” Etc status messages...lol...

Yes I am getting married on 29/Dec/2010. Will be happy to see your smiling faces on the much-awaited fantabulous glorious (& all the nice nice adjectives ... LOL) DAY of my life..

Hope you can drive... .. Or even better if you plan to be in Goa for New Year’s Eve... Just a 4 hr drive from my place!! Or If you wish to enjoy the serene beauty … Or….. Yaar! Just be there … Would really be happy to see U there… Please. …

PDF File -- Boring
EXE/ZIP File -- Ultra Happy and No virus .. so better see.. :), and power on the speakers too…

Smiles,
Shilpa

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THANKYOU GOD!

Too many reminders to keep me off of my blogging. You know, I believe god saves everything for the best. Therez time whr you feel lonely and those “giving up” times... and suddenly god sends you your long lost frens who can keep you going further along the mile. Thank You god!!

MORE TO COME!!

Keeping My Word!!

Sure, I did it today. Writing into U. :) Lately, you have been kinda more like a journal. Writing prompts here to help...... :P

NOTHINGS

Hey …. After the “Late again‘s! Ages! Cant do‘s! Start something now’s!! :D All made-up phrases. I finally start to write something. I have realized, one doesn’t do things EITHER when they have too much or completely nothing on hand. LUCKY for me, it was the latter case. Whatever, therez so much to write and everything systematically aligned (don’t ask where) but nothing to pen down yet. God I am @ the zenith of laziness. Hope I am to write consistently at least now. !!!!

Hey..
Everythign arounds seems to come up with a sequel, and it is quite a good thing if u want to rest your creative side( Thts a creative way of saying my mind isnt working anymore, gimme a brk ..:D). So

Cribbing 2

I was going through few writing prompts. A lot many options to get the brains ticking i.e. if u have one. Mine seems to be on a long vacation now. :) Had a long discussion with someone about good things happen to good people. And I was of the belief that all people are good. A hard crack to the belief… Ye!!! Hope things get better for good.

And for the one who is planning to write, do not wait for a subject to come by. Just pen down wot your heart wants you to. You will do good; Coz ur heart says so. I think the drugs are taking a toll on me, cant thing abt a thing straight.

Wives!

I cant but say its sooooooo true ...

If Columbus had been married, he might never have discovered America because he would have had to answer all of the following:

· Where are you going?
· With whom?
· Why?
· How are you going?
· To discover what?
· Why only you?
· What do I do, when you are not here?
· Can I come with you ?
· Coming back when?
· Dinner ghar par hi khaoge?
· Mere liye kya laoge?
· It seems you deliberately made this ....
· Don’t lie....
· Why r u making such programs?
· You seem to be making a lot of such programs...
· Answer me..Why?
· I want to go to my parents place...
· I want you to come and drop me...
· I will never come back....
· Why are u not stopping me....
· I don’t understand what is this discovery chakker?
· You always do like this.....
· Last time also u did like this....
· Now a day’s u always seem to do like this.... [I loved this one]
· I still don’t understand what else is left to be discovered...


This is sooo Me!!

राजा शिवछत्रपती - Star Pravah ( Raja Shiv Chaatrapati) Lyrics Title Song

Spent long hours a night searching for the lyrics but with no luck. Atlast decided to pen it down myself. Hope someone finds it useful.


Write to me for the audio.

RAJA SHIVCHATRAPATI

CORONATION Lyrics

मराठी

English

इन्द्र जीमी जंभपर, वाढव सुअंभ पर, रावण सदंभ पर, रघुकुल राज हैं। पौन बारी बाह पर, संतु रतीनाह पर , ज्यो सहस्त्रबार पर, राम द्वीजराज हैं. हृदयात माउली रयतेस साउली, गड़ कोट राउळी शिवशंकर हा. मुक्तीची मंत्रणा युक्तिची यंत्रणा, गड दुष्ट दुर्जना खलयंतर हा. संतास रक्षितो शत्रुंसी खंदतो, भावंड भावना संस्थापितो. नैसा युगे युगे स्मरणीय सर्वदा, माता पिता सखा शिवभुपतो. दावा द्रुमदंड पर, चीता मृगझुंड पर, भूषण बितुंड पर, जैसे मृगराज हैं। तेज तम अंस पर, कान्हा जीमी कंस पर, त्यों मलेछ वंस पर, शेर शिवराज हैं. जय भवानी, जय भवानी जय शिवाजी, जय शिवाजी जय भवानी, जय भवानी जय शिवाजी, जय शिवाजी

Indra Jimi Jambhpar, Vadhav Suamb Par, Ravan Sadambh Par, Raghukul Raaj Hain. Paun Baari Baah Par, Santu Ratinaah Par, Jyon Sahasrabaar Par, Raam Dwijraaj Hain. Hridayaat Maauli, Rayates Saauli, Gad Kot Raauli ShivShankar Haa. Muktichi Mantranaa,Yuktichi Yantranaa, Gad Dusht Durjana Khalayantar Haan. Santaas Rakhshito Shatrunsi Khandato, Bhavand Bhaavna Sansthapito. Naisa Yuge Yuge Smaraneeya Sarvada, Maata Pita Sakha Shiv Bhupato. Daava Drumdand Par,Cheeta Mrugjhund Par, Bhushan Bitund Par, Jaise Mrugraaj Hain. Tej Tam Ans Par, Kaanha Jimi Kans Par, Tyon Malech Vans Par, Sher Shivraaj Hain. Jai Bhavani Jai Bhavani Jai Shivaji Jai Shivaji Jai Bhavani Jai Bhavani Jai Shivaji Jai Shivaji

The Blabber

Hey... Long long time, again.. I have been making similar excuses writing my journal too... Been so busy & not well.. Feel so drained out. And yes.. planning on writin on book too.. rounding up on the subject.. Chetan Bhagat is a good inspiration to come out with somehtign better.. As said by someone close.

The Bad Day --- Gone!!!

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Marriages – Of Late!!!

Oh Ya! Marriages are made in Heaven … and _________ on Earth (Fill In The Blank - No Right Answer); then there is the Theory Of Exceptions. But not the best match, or probably no match. I guess all my friends have been thru the torture of finding and settling down for the one and yes few fantasize to call them SoulMates. Soul-mates do not hurt; only few realize it the hard way.

Well, it’s my turn now to find the one. But how do I know the one; when I had seen people crushed down; married and separated;; things didn’t work because of in-laws; it was my husband’s best friend; didn’t find me good-looking enough to settle down, and "see-our-marriage-is-a-mistake--- A-Terrible-One"; “Your Parents! Don’t they have a life”?

Married in relations, but the in-laws are envious. Married in love, sis-in-law can’t get enough. Broken marriages; married YOU becoz I wanted to get back @ you; madly in love, live in relationships all come to an end within 3 months; Love can’t survive for more than 3 months; and then I also heard someone say Marriage and Love are two different things - FLIRT.

I see bad marriages all around me; the only ones that seem to work were done about 30 yrs ago; others are too short to talk about. The people pushing me into it; it’s not that they are not aware of broken marriages, emotions and the feelings, but they can’t promise things either --- things that are not supposed to happen; THEN why push me!

Things alter when one starts thinking about A spouse; even if it was the best friend; one starts anticipating things, one vows to read other’s minds. Always the wandering thought, will she do that for me? Does he think about me when at work? Does he understand my feelings; w/o saying a word? (Yes, I have read “Men are from Mars and Women From Venus” and its so true). Can he ever choose me over his friends? Why does he not share things? Does she believe in me? Why can’t he understand that I miss him? Why doesn’t she answer my call? etc; too many questions to answer.

Gosh!! Why do people even bother about being in relationships; when they know there is nothing giving? Why people tend to hurt themselves? Marrying high school crush, hope the lady is grown-up.

Not that I am against them or they are bad; its just that it hurts when u don’t see the differences coming. And then, the things about self-sufficiency and reliability. Everything is counted in terms of money and things "I-Do-For-U-And-U-Don’t" !

Ofcourse, I agree, its hard to commit to someone; how do you ever realize that this is the guy? Pity they don’t come with Tags on them. Just imagine, You go out; and see your name written on someone; just walk up and say “Where Have You Been? Was Looking all over the place”. Wouldn’t it be nice. No Nonsense, no fights, no differences; ITS ALL DONE. Only presume, there is no fault in the SHIPPING & LABELLING DEPARTMENT – Fingers Crossed.

I believe in friends, friendships like no other; and probably I will get lonely too, when all my friends are married/engaged; but I will not have to cry over something which was never my fault; though I will miss the “make-me-feel-wanted” or “the-precious-things-I-ever-had” feelings; the pampering. But I will not have to listen to “Do-Nothings” from someone I had hoped to love me for what I am.




I am aware, there is no solution to this, it happened before and will happen again, and keep recurring. Sad/Strange Are The Ways Of Life! But I don’t want to be hurt; is there a way out?

The Cribbing Session

Ok! Its been a while, the people concerned have spoken to me; too busy with assignments; the weddings and don’t know wot stuff.

Finally the blog is a handy one; Dear Blog. This one completely devoted to the cribbing. Yes the cribbing. So until you feel you aren’t in for something like this; do not continue. And remember.. Its MY blog.

The buses; the not so done appointement; the class – Instructional Designing; the assignments; the stares and more to go.

The lady in the bus; or I shud say the d(eh)elicate d(uh)arling (with the aspirations), The CRUELLA….: D; Can’t even manage the slight jerk. Hey… if that’s so … why cant she fly; why bother the public transport; and Oh! the look “ Cant she stand Right” – only If I cud say “ u r right I cant! Can u pls do it for me”.

The Umbrella:
My umbrella gave up on me atlast.. I bought a new lavender…Looks Cool. ;)

Ya.. it is too sunny and I cant do w/o the umbrella .. “Tera kya jaata hain bhai .Tumhe toh nahi pakdaaya”.

And yes, so much for the public transport; I bet I can write chronicles of it.
The bus conductor; ages ago – it was the fifty paise.. now a rupee.. How come he never seems to have a rupee; when its my turn. – Always.

Then the Autowallahs – can’t say more “&%#$##^”.

The people at the institute; I fear the most; How come they know everything that I wasn’t ever aware off. They come up with the perfect plan to scare me; scare me more everyday and ya they do it with their impeccable smiling faces. It works!!!

The batch mates; they remind me of the fun I miss @ work... Poor Me!!!

And though after so many promises; I didn’t get to eat the panipuri yet.!!!!!!


Done for today! The rest will be covered some other day!
Have a good sleep now. ..:)

Another Forward Worth The Laugh !!!

It's the murder of English language. But Too Funny to miss... Read It!

The Leave Applications ;)

Infosys, Bangalore : An employee applied for leave as follows:

"Since I have to go to my village to sell my land along with my wife, please sanction me one-week leave."
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• This is from Oracle Bangalore: >From an employee who was performing the "mundan" ceremony of his 10 year old son:

"as I want to shave my son's head, please leave me for two days.."

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• Another gem from CDAC. Leave-letter from an employee who was performing his daughter's wedding:
"as I am marrying my daughter, please grant a week's leave..."

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• From H.A.L. Administration Dept:
"As my mother-in-law has expired and I am only one responsible for it, please grant me 10 days leave."

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• Another employee applied for half day leave as follows:
"Since I've to go to the cremation ground at 10 o-clock and I may not return, please grant me half day casual leave"

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• An incident of a leave letter:
"I am suffering from fever, please declare one-day holiday."

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• A leave letter to the headmaster:
"As I am studying in this school I am suffering from headache. I request you to leave me today"
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• Another leave letter written to the headmaster:
"As my headache is paining, please grant me leave for the day."
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• Covering note:
"I am enclosed herewith.... "
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• Another one:
"Dear Sir: with reference to the above, please refer to my below...."

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• Actual letter written for application of leave:
"My wife is suffering from sickness and as I am her only husband at home I may be granted leave".
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• Letter writing:-
"I am well here and hope you are also in the same well."
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• A candidate's job application:
"This has reference to your advertisement calling for a ' Typist and an Accountant - Male or Female'... As I am both(!! )for the past several years and I can handle both with good experience, I am applying for the post.

My Date with The Chicken – Ofcourse Dead!

After all that uproar about the Tandoor; the grill; the barbeque stand and Pinky - Does not know anything stunt; I am finally entrusted with the responsibility of cooking the TANDOORI CHICKEN…me PROUD.

It’s been a long time, I have experimented; with all the mood swings and not-so-good happenings; I really know now, cooking is something which soothes me the most (Past the aroma therapy). As I always said to Aron; leave me in the kitchen the whole day and I will be the brighter soul. (Its been ages I spoke to U; whr r U?)

After the initial mix of spices; not-like-that deal; the never-ending 4 long hours of marinade; the chicken is out on the grill and me finishing my part of story or I say scrap blogging…: P and you reading….

HOPE IT TURNS OUT GOOD!!!

Heart Aches!

Another prod, and here I go… This time sad - sad - sad sobbing tales of heart. Nothing to say; nothing in particular, absolutely nothing but nothing either makes me smile.
Few days ago; I was smiling; probably at everything. But now nothing hilarious, amusing makes me SMILE… sob sob!!!.. No, No I am not frowning either; so don’t worry about the wrinkles. But I am sad; sad for so many things that I don’t realize them anymore.

I am hurt; hurt in ways I didn’t know I could be. The bad kinda feeling you know you want to share but you know you never can, you want to cry your heart out but you know people around will never realize why! Lonely, even when out with friends; their cranky jokes; your heart aches a little when someone around you giggles, The ache grows stronger as u try to figure out why!; Nothing like this ever happened but heart still aches. Aches for something which is/ was never yours. Mixed bad sad feelings. Cant say a word about it to anyone; but you still know YOU want to share it with the world to lessen the pain but the thot kills you.

Someone to the rescue please!!!!